I am back to normal again. I've been getting enough sleep to think with clarity, stopped drinking coffee (something that has kept me sane during the days) & shopped an effing lot (which makes me officially broke). Ganun lang talaga yun. Sad, but everyone gets hurt from time to time & when you're down, you just have to think of all the good things in life to pick yourself back up. I don't care that I was/am/will be questioned about how I felt nor how I reacted b/c I know I was just being true to myself. You know me. What you see is what  you get. Ya, it's just a matter of acceptance that things have the ability to change so much that you can't even control it. I guess only the people who initiate the changes have the ability to control the direction of where the changes go. Basta wala na yon. Aye!

Monday, my HM sisters (except for Camz) & I spent the day at Greenbelt & Glorietta as a despedida for Iya. She's leaving for Italy in a few days. (Still waiting on the pics from Thea.) Haay... It's so sad how people close to my heart always have to leave...

I met Vehnee Saturno yesterday through a friend. A very good man. I mean for someone who has a name... *bows* You should meet him!

Hmmm... Natutuwa ako kay Jay (Manalo)! Haha, crush ko kasi sya!!! Ampogi talaga! Like some sort of a god... Truly! Tapos super fun pa sya!

Bangag na at around 3 a.m. hahaha

Btw, I have updated my gallery...

Since when did I write Taglish entries??? Parang hindi ako ah! Well for a change, why not di ba? Bye muna peeps!

Basta, ok na talaga ako...

It is still going on in my head. I can't put it all down b/c I can't put all my feelings into words. I just know that I am way too passionate & emotional about the things I try to keep close to me. Some things I try to understand, but just can't. I don't want to feel the way that I do, but it's still there. Can't deny it.

Have you ever felt that no matter how much you care, it just isn't enough?

Exactly.

Alright... Well... Something that doesn't seem so negative... Meet my new baby!

It somehow helps, you know. Thanks Mom & Dad!

Broken Music

Broken music
A beautiful tune
Skipping in & out
A chaotic tumble
Turning distant
Then loud
A bittersweet jolting
From the faulty speakers
A smooth voice & soft strumming
But the listener can't hear
Going deaf every few seconds
And then regaining what they lost
Broken music
But who broke it?

Things go in cycles, I guess. I was feeling great, but now I don't know. Weirdly enough, I have a few friends feeling the same way. I think I would have to watch out for my sanity (or what's left of it). I was not very mature. I hate myself for being so sensitive. It's starting to sink in & I can't stem the pain or they will find out. Some people understand what I mean. Saturday, I was told some things & hearing those brought pain. All I could do was cry in shock. I felt like a teardrop. I was shaking all over & cold. After that, it was just a numb blur.

Love is a trap. When it appears, we see only its light, not its shadows. - By the River Piedra, I Sat Down and Wept (Paulo Coelho)

Anyhows... Things are looking a bit brighter. I have had enough with the silence~everything I had to hide from him. In that situation, I wasn't just involved, but also someone I care for dearly. All along I thought he didn't give a damn. It's like sharing a mutual depth of understanding. Get the picture?